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Cafe On The Ave

Its funny where we find places to blog. Im waiting for my bus to go back to Bellevue and the reson for my departure from seattle is because it is my sisters 30th birthdays. Quite the milestone if you ask me. My family grows older and signs of this fact are surfacing. Be fairwarned, I don’t know if this will be a happy blog but none the less, it will be insightful for myself. My life seems to happen in themes. Theres some kind of eerie motif that offers a way to make all these instances more understandable.

My grandpa was sent to the emergency room because he was feeling dizzy one night when he was heading towards the restroom. Mind you, he is almost 80 years old. He stayed at the hospital overnight just to make sure nothing entirely terrible happens. If something so unfortunate does happen, then he would be in the best place to resolve any such circumstance. The smoke clears and he’s given the green light to go home. My phone rings and its my mom informing me of what just happened. He is currently staying at my uncles place to rest and share a peace of mind with the rest of the family. His presense for all of us is reassuring and ours for him and only comforting. i was stunned when I heard the news and many thoughts flashed through my head. Some nostalgic, others fearful of the future. What is to come and expect, I don’t think anyone is ready for. Last I heard we were all planning to surprise him with an extra special Christmas by throwing a surprise get together of the entire family, including ones from Canada. During that time will mark his 80th birthday. Wow, reaching 80 is what I call a Milestone. I think longevity of life is one of the greater achievements in a person. We are given challenges throughout our life and we overcome them. Our accomplishments are rewarded with an incentive we strive for. What more incentive is there than given the opportunity to see another sun rise, to see your family who continue to unconditionally express joy for your well being, to endure another moments pass and experience it one more step at a time. The endurance is incredible and I will marvel at how this achievement. But signs of age are racing fast and im afraid that the surprise will not come soon enough. I will be ever hopeful and play my hand on a faithful pray because I don’t know what else I can do. All that we can do is just focus more energy in what time we have left with him. This is my motivation to spend the most time I can with my friends. I cant wait on signs of endangerment to realize how much meaning and value I have placed on those individuals that have attributed to the happier moments of my life. It is only fair that I give back to my grand father the care he felt for me.

My sister turns 30 today. Everyone at her work decorated the area with black balloons. You think, why at 30? What will 40 look like?! I thought it was pretty funny. They even put up signs to have people call her and wish her a happy 21st birthday. She does look young, and that is great. Whether looking young or old, she still looks like my sister to me and she will be greatly appreciated. How much she has done thus far could be considered ordinary to some, but in this small world I live it, she is a hero. a sister, a mom and a friend – she’s played her role successfully (for the most part) and that’s awesome. Im proud of her. I wonder if she will read this.

My mentor turned 40 not so long ago. I hope to be like her at 40. Her spirit is such a spectacle to witness. In her own way she bares the expression of a youth still experiencing the world. Everything is exciting and you can laugh at the situation. Even though she has his spirit, she’s not reckless. It’s the subtly that really shows.